Incaptivity

We lived in two separate worlds, he and I. Notwithstanding the striking similarities, our worlds could never do more than share an atmosphere for some number of months at any extent. The first time I met him, I had been orbiting for somewhere over eleven years. We had the good fortune to, for the next three years, cross paths consistently. But then I spent two years of my existence orbiting aimlessly without his companionship or any semblance of contact, trying out another world for compatibility, and ultimately spending a lot of time alone sipping tea. On one particular, star-less night, when I had forgone the tea for Monster, his orbit

My world is a Russian Roulette spinning on a thin black thread The gold of the world sparkles in his eye But I'll never even make it In my card games, I always lose My heart's the back of the deck I pin one by one till fifty-two on the inside of my cardigan

She felt swamped. Buried. Positive outlooks on life would be the death of her, she swore. And brains. She's smart; she admits it. Hindered, but smart. School had never presented such a challenge before. Maybe if she wasn't a perfectionist. Or maybe if she wasn't trying to be positive this year. Because really, what did she have to be positive about? A family, a boyfriend, and a couple of good friends. A kid who really considers her his mother, and incestuous siblings. She looked back on the puzzle she had drawn freshman year. The puzzle of her life, she'd called it. Because that's how she ran her life. Different people got different pieces

Well, I think it will help. Silence is my greatest weakness. So I understand. That shy girl has grown. she's still shy, but that doesn't hinder her confidence. No. Her silence does. And in her silence she wants to start over. Hi, you're in all my other classes. Mind if I sit here?

Batteries weren't included, because she was sheltered You forced her to work. You turned her on to the world But she could only run without power for so long And thus, her eyes shattered, skewing her vision Still, the tears fell I'm unable to win or lose or even play this game And so now I spend my time, diving through the world, looking for my batteries

Take me to the sea watch the waves lap up on land bury our troubles in the sand seagulls flap and feathers fall sit there and take in it all rotting fish, but that's okay i would take it any day over boring city life Just take me to the sea

there's a knife on my bed & it misses me so there's a scar where it's been & i just want you to know sometimes it's stronger than i & i miss it too please tell it to hush; it listens to you

Stumbling through the dark Running into walls Smashing my shoulders Until down I fall The cold chills me through Straight down to my toes I can't tell if you love me But then who really knows

Crash your car in my heart When you finally can drive Whisper lies in my ear Because you know that I'll strive To be perfect for you You know I won't win Like I even care IF YOU BURN IN YOUR SIN